The Corona virus pandemic-My own experience

Today as i watched TV, there was a program by the seventh day adventist church led by a one Bishop that unfortunately i didn't get his name. The Bishop mentioned that the corona virus pandemic has made him learn that there are four categories of people. I immediately shut down my laptop wjere i was working and listened to what he was saying, yes i love to learn something new form such wise religious men.
The Bishop went ahead to decribe what these types of people are and i qucickly knew where i fall.
he said that category one of these people are those that;

• Get closer to God and pray without ceasing during hard times like these. That these people remember God only when the situation is tough and act all holy and prayerful than before

He mentioned that the second category of people are those that;

• Are what he called insensitive. These dont really care about whats going on in the world and are just living everyday as they have been doing. that they are not really worried or concerned at all. they just watch whats happenening on the news and still feel nothing.

now i think this is where i belonged at first. I honestly never cared about this whole thing. Even when they announced the first corona case in my country Uganda. I saw everyone updating their status and people making phone calls all worried and i was like this thing isnt even a big deal. I didnt even for one second think about this pandemic as something to give so much attention, yeah thats how insensitive i was.

The Bishop talked about another category of people as those that;

• Have stopped praying and believing God saying that If he was truely alive, such things wouldnt have happened. These people lose their faith at the slightest problem and start to doubt if God is even there.

the fourth and last category that the Bishop mentioned was;

• the people that get their faith strengthened during hard times. My thoughts went directly to my mother who actually gets to belive God more and trust Jesus even more that before durng a problem. 

so, where do you belong?

Personally i belonged to the second category that was insensitive and really unbothered about what was going on until the president announced the first lockdown. things became business unusual and the reality started to hit. My work place closed and we were asked to continue working but from home. The numbers became low and low everyother day and now the fear of the unkown and anxiety attacks started hitting. 

will i hit my targets at the end of the financial year? what if i dont? what will happen to my job?

anyways so many questions lingered thru my mind but i realised im not alone going thru this kind of depression, we are all worried.

however in all this, i decided to look at the brighter side of the lockdown and the blessings it has presented to me.

• I get to spend alot of time with my immediate family(spouse and son). Especially for my almost 2 year old whom i started leaving behind at three months everyday to go and work and return around 4 or 5 pm. He looks so happy now and growing fatter because i feed him all the time.
• time to bond with my spouse more because ous is a long distance marriage. we both have to work and somehow we found ourselves in different parts of the country. so when the lockdown was announed he quickly got his way down here where i work.( he didnt carry the corona virus to us and we thank God).
• Being about 4-5 months pregnant with our second child, im always fatigued and sleepy most of the time so this lockdown presented mt with a chance to get enough rest.
• staying at home

SORRY DAD!

Something happened to you dad that created anger,bitterness,sadness,grief in my heart.why did it happen to you that way? you were a nice man, a good father and a good husband and a friend to many.

am so sorry that you had leave,that you had to travel very far away ,away from your beloved family.

you used to tell us that you are afraid your sickness would one day take you away from your family and when all the good things had started coming in.indeed thats exactly what happened.

when all of us your children had got somewhere in this world,when we had started earning a living and being independet,when we had started bringing for you whatever you wanted as a way of saying thankyou for all the sacrifices you made for us...just like that, you left!

dad...sorry for what happened to you.that cruel pain in the leg took you away when we needed you most.we needed your advice, we needed your presence on our parties, we needed you to be happy amd play with your grand kids. but just like that, you left.

i still cant get to terms that you are never going to come back to us.to make us laugh like you used to whenever we had family gatherings..your parents miss you alot we miss you dad.

we can not question God why he had to take you away from us but we thank him for the time that we spent with you.it was priceless.

we were so broken when we saw you lifeless,closing your eyes and looking like that in that place where they kept you.it was sad,the pain was unbearable..we cant believe that was you dad.you were happy and full of life just a few days before that fatefull day .sorry dad for what happened to you.we couldnt do anything about it,we saw you becoming different but we didnt see anything like that coming.

we hope you are in a better place dad and may God rest your soul in eternal peace.

Mediocrity is a disease

Apparently there is this thing eating up people especially in Africa where by people are so comfortable living in mediocrity.They are very okay being average in ever thIng that they do. 

what happened to being extra ordinary? why have we chosen to leave ordinary and average lives when we can choose to be the best versions of ourselves.

I think the reason to why we behave or live like this is because we have tried to get peoples approvals before doing the things that we love to do.Its not right,its a terrible thing to want to be approved first by your parents, societies,teachers or friends before you do that course at university,take up a certain job or career..no its so wrong. break that chain or fear and move onto making your own decisions because you are what matters most.

we have settled for less because we want to impress our parents and the people in our lives not knowing that we are being unfair and even doing injustice to our own dear lives. God gave each of us a life that we are to live fully and we can not waste this one single life we got to trying to live it like we have been told to do.

Do not let anyone decide when you get married,when you get children,who you marry,where to work,what to study etc...make those decisions yourself and you will not regret it.and even if they do not go right,you will not regret as hard as if any one had made them for you.

in order to break this chain binding us of mediocrity,let us do things that set our souls on fire even if nobody likes it but as long as it makes you feel happy,good about yourself because in the end,you are what matters.

the boss lady

Clearly a boss lady is an attractive lady.Although many men with low self esteem can not put up is a wife who is a boss lady, most cases they think she is bossy.Such ladies are most times career minded and i grew up admiring them,maybe the reason why i have grown to become one myself.

I think there is something about working women,that ranges from quite a number or traits like being principled,strict,assertive,shrewd etc that actually I do not find in other women. the world apparently needs these ladies to grow homes, organisations because most times women in big offices are more genuine than their male counter parts.

ladies out there,wake up early,stay late and bust your asses...its worth it.

A Motivation

Many are the times we wake up feeling like there is little or no spirit left with in us.Not because we are going through a rough time but because we have nothing exciting going on in our lives.The simple disappointments,the feelings of not being appreciated et cetera.

There are days that you wake up and you actually do not feel like going to work or actually do anything on that day,you do not feel like its worth it but then there is a force inside of you that keeps telling you to keep moving on.somehow when you trust that voice ,you stagger out of bed to the bathroom and head to work hoping to get a motivation.It is always not easy but when you keep moving,somehow days also move and you make it through the week alive but looking like a walking corpse or a walker in the series walking dead..lol.

forget not,however that we have found rest and solace in Jesus Christ and when you remember that He is actually God,there is a ray of hope that fills your heart and you keep hoping for the best.

As humans,he need a motivation in life so as to keep moving.it could be family,a good job,a higher pay,a good friend, a good relationship but above all we need Jesus.

Today i need a motivation because i cannot even find myself...well not because i have problems but because I feel I deserve better.

stepping into the unknown

are you going to let fear hold you back? or are you going to be bold and step into the unknown? trust Him

• in the unknown is where miracles happen
• you discover ability that you never knew you had
• you will accomplish more than you ever dreamed

just because you don't have the details doesn't mean God doesn't have the details

     trust HIM

Mind blackout!

As i starred outside the window of a certain hall, a lot of things ran through my mind, some of which got me worried and before i knew it, fear had taken a better part of me. i was buried in a couple of thoughts which became questions that i didn't seem to find answers for!My mind blacked out! scary, isn't it?

 after a while, i was awakened by strong sun rays that hit direct to my forehead and i decided to draw the window curtains(in this context, i mean to close.LOL) there and then i turned to face my answer booklet in front of me but something caught my eye! it was a writing on the window seal which read,"PRAY WITHOUT CEASING!" That got me hypnotized! this was written in a clear blue pen by a certain soul out there whom i will never know like forever.
That writing kinda gave me all the answers to the questions that had been lingering in my mind for like the previous couple of minutes. with just that and a little faith, i overcame the fear.Awesome!isn't it? I WAS FREE!

I sat amazed with a grin on my face,its at that time that i heard my lecturer who was now standing besides me funny enough without me noticing, announcing the one hour remaining to the end of the exam. oops!, i exclaimed, i hadn't done the last number of my favorite programming course unit. immediately i put my pen to paper and signed the answers! this time with A FREE MIND
reminder! PRAY WITHOUT CEASING